Hopesterz

2011-06-14T11:45:00.002+08:00

Hi.. Just a random post after such a long time..
Well i feel my life is facing such a big changes..

The places i going to everyday, the people i facing everyday..
i shouldnt say its bad but its so unlike the past.
i feel the changes be it good or bad..

i don club anymore, or rather i club once every 4 mths?
i don drink anymore, or rather i drink only for chilling out session?

life been rather peaceful and enjoyable i guess..
althot becoming a little not sociable anymore.. but i still not that outdated after all..
Went to KL 3 weeks ago..
went to kelong@msia 1 week ago..
this week going batam..
Next month Taiwan here i come :)
More to come? hahahaha

i can see ur effort.. but i guess i just need time to digest and think..
Stay put like this isnt it better too?

2011-04-12T19:16:00.003+08:00

PATHETIC humans in my office...
Super super bth okay!!!!!!!!!!
but well i don wanna curse.. i am a good girl..

Any jobs to intro.. i wanna find a new one.. :)

2011-03-31T08:16:00.001+08:00

Life = NO good..
Well and i think something is seriously wrong with her.. Everything she also want to bother. Like what joyce said to me.. Maybe is the attention she is seeking.. But well..
I try to ignore but i cant don see.. And yes it is affecting me so much.. Cause my name is always being reflected out to ppl..

Work sucks too.. OT ot ot ot..
What worst is they still doubt.. KNS..
Like what we all say.. this is the heart and soul of the QA..
explaining will not be easy.. And sometimes does not make any difference too..
See no point..

No longer an intern or student.. Consider working adults...
Time is so tight for me...
Understand is what i need..
Everything is driving me nuts.. don bother to explain anymore too.. since ppl always get their own fact right even after explaining.. No point.

2011-02-15T11:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i don wish to hear anything from anyone about u guys..
It just make me feel that u simply not fit to be a fren of anyone..
Well how long u know that person does not determine if he/she will be a close fren of yours.
Character i guess is the main factor.. Well don bother i guess..

Well.. chinese new year ending soon.. no more holiday till april.. How can this be.. so cruel to us working adults.. ADULTS.. feel rather old to say myself.. =(
Anyway, Friends thanks for being there.. And Thanks for treating me truthfully.. Appreciated.. =) No lover is okay as long as i'm happy with my life i guess.. but am i?

Yea.. Thanks for treating me awfully choco cake.. =D Althot i know u brought the wrong size.. from one slice to one bday cake.. Well.. but appreciated and i feel its super nice..
Oh yes.. And thanks for the choco too.. =D
And yea.. i received a lovely bear with roses.. =D
Of cause, not forgetting this choco and candy.. =D

2011-02-02T10:41:00.002+08:00

Hello people....
New year is coming.... I mean chinese new year....
Wooo this year i plenty excited.. WHY?
cause working adults like ME.. don have one month school holiday or so..
Therefore this 4 long days is something worth treasuring...

But this year don have the mood to buy new year clothes. Maybe is because always after work and the time is so limit for me to shop.. But i manage to get 5 pairs of shoe for this cny. =)
LOL..
But working on today.. Cny eve is like so boring but thanks god at least they give us half day but who dont? hahaha.
Oh ya.. Caught quite a few interesting ppl last week like ttl, joanne during my relaxing hours..
And a few surprises too.. =D
BTW Wee we shall try walking the whole of gambas ave till ur hse next time okay.. But lets drink lesser and slower okay. =x

Do Check this out..

The horse will experience good fortune in the Year of the Rabbit, especially for female. You will encounter a nobility in your work this year who will assist you in your work. There is a good opportunity for promotion and pay rise as well, but you should be careful of disputes with each another. In this year of good fortune, business will be blooming but you must know how to hold on to the money. Do not be misled into believing the words of villains into a money scam. You must also take precautions against theft, lock your windows and doors. This year is a good year to meet the opposite sex and it is time to consider about your future happiness. Health is not good this year so pay more attention to exercise and get ample of rest.

Happy chinese new year everybody =)

2011-01-30T16:12:00.003+08:00

Yea! Phuket with her..

Simply love overseas trip with friends..
So when will we go for one? Wee, ttl and Jin??

Recently so much things been happening around me..

Although i am being affected by it. But well i know i shouldnt maybe things are not that complicated as what i think..

Yes!! If someone want to get close with me is not because i snatched the person over.. perhaps is you not good enough to hold on to ur fren.. u don treat ur fren as true as how i treat someone.. Millions of reason.. i not trying to say i am good okay..

Yesterday incident.. Well someone i know ok or rather me and wee know for years can hacked care us and sit comfortably there and someone who only know us for months look like treasure us more than u does.. Disappointed? No i'm not just make me realise who is more worth..

ME AND WEE intended to walk home from yishun.. so we walk past chong pang and go towards gambas ave.. Anyway is not that we don have money but perhaps we just want to enjoy the wind everything? We drink but we not drunk okay!

If i know that you will go one more big round just to send us home.. We shld have prevent this from happening i guess. But thanks for picking us up at gambas to home..

always trying to treasure things i thot i shld but everything prove me not to..

Its okay..

CNY coming.. ok actually i not excited as usual..

But i always love meeting up my friends..

2011-01-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

Back from phuket.. last week..

Very interesting experience.. Haha hear from me and you will find it so funny..

And i realise i forget to blog.. LOL..

So after i back from phuket i went drinking on friday, sat and sun..

Wooo then tue down on fever, flu 2 days.. OMG..

2011-01-11T14:50:00.003+08:00

WOO! change money for mine upcoming phuket trip..
Please pray that it wont be a raining season there too...
I feel so slpy after reading requirements. Ah.. someone come talk to me please.. >.<

This month is a damn pack month.. so much things to do..
Going to attend bday at msia.. Woo cool isnt it...
This month cash flow is like OMG..
I feel like Singing, clubbing this week..
Damn badly.. LOL...

anyway thanks shijun and also nice catch up session with u over at jp =D
suddenly while chatting with mich the topic become tense.. i no mood to blog le..

2011-01-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

throat inflection find me almost every month.. Just how serious it can be...

Well..

You know the sudden fear is back again..

I donno why and i start to think, hope my powerful mind will stop letting my wild imagination to imagine even worst thing which can happen to me..

So many thing i wanna fulfill for myself but i wonder can i make it?

2011-01-03T10:54:00.003+08:00

Happy New year everyone.. =)
Brand New year, Brand new Start..
Forget all the unhappiness and hope this year will be a better year.. =)

Siloso countdown.. FUN!
The songs was great but just that takin' back my love was not play.. =(
Well.. saw my primary sch mate when i was on the tram and also my sec sch mate there too..
We just rock ourselves so hard on that day..
Went over to wavehouse and azura before we head home..
Me and Alicia went down the swimming pool in azura.. FYI we did not bring extra clothing there.. actually i did la tank top only.. but my pants everything was wet.. i shivered my way home..

Sat was a rest at home day.. woo but somehow i was listening to all the songs and the feel hit me real hard.. DAMN kuku.. but i decided not to go ph so i went out with my tshirt on to find JJ and AW for dinner.. but after one call and i decided to head down again.. stupid me la..
cab home change and off to PH.. Wooo
Met some guys we met in siloso.. joined them for a drink and off we went to dancefloor..
Thanks D for the treat flaming lambo.. hahah.. thot i hate to drink but well...
left at 4+, they drove us to yishun for breakfast and back home..

Things please turn better. HAHA..
i'm great that we spoke.. =D

2010-12-29T15:50:00.002+08:00

Tonight.. Drink drunk drank..
Drank is fake de.. i wont get drank tonight..
Tmr start work at 5.30am..
Shld i slp after club before heading down to work?
HAHA.. AND yes something happy.. Maybe for me..
Friday going in by guestlist.. no worries for the queue..

One thing is stopping me from all this is my sickness..
Sian max.. pills for 2 days and its still not recovering..
i worry if i go tonight it might get worst on friday..

Should i ask you? thats a qns in my mind since one week ago..
i want yet i know things will be diff then..
tough decision.

"And thought there are times when i hate you 'cause i cant erase. the times u hurt me and put tears on my face"
Yea i nearly cried when i think of the cruel fact..
i cant explain the feeling i having.. i wan yet i dont.
But now i totally don care abt this matter anymore..
you see is it my heart trying to be funny with me?

Friday countdown.. see you guys there.. join in the fun man.. woo.

2010-12-28T16:30:00.002+08:00

Well.. My long weekends.. both spend it at club =.='"
At least i enjoyed. But i enjoyed more of the sat part.. Why?
More friends more drinks dance together.
Really "All the crazy shit we did it tonight" well i shall not mentioned here..

Girls we are so gonna party for the last 2 times in year 2010..
And me i shall stop going club le.. For my health and all other purpose..

Anyway that was so bad of koko..
He scare mich iphone4 16gb memory is going to use up by me..
Cause of the photos i shot for myself =.=
so kua zhang..
Ytd night fulfill my craving for satay and chicken wings.. Thanks millions rich for ur treat.
Oh ya and also the kolar bear u brought from aust. =)
Chirstmas is filled with presents from my love ones and also my colleague..

Anyway 3 more days to end of 2010..
Comeon let me end this very bad year of mine..
Looking forward to my phuket trip in Jan..
Shld i go with u this friday? i still wondering..

2010-12-22T17:48:00.002+08:00

Wed.. 2 more days to chirstmas =)
Actually i have no plans for chirstmas this year.
Somemore when u are working u wont tend to plan what to do for chirstmas but just great that holiday is coming adn u can dont go work. Maybe thats for me only.
Hmmmm.

Zouk tonight =) long since i went there.
Woo shall stop my clubbing life soon.
I don mean stop but cut down..

I went eski bar last week. So this guy ask me to save his number so next time when we go we can call him. Okay so basically i saved.
Ytd he sms me what am i doing.
So i looked at my phone and stun for 5 secs..
Well stupid me i forget to save the name correctly. i save his name as mine own name.
So was wondering which kelly sms me ytd. =.='"

Should i go siloso countdown party? OMG

2010-12-17T17:16:00.003+08:00

I didn't know where i pick up my courage from.
But i just decided to tell you.
Kind of regret because i rem you telling me before and me telling u the same thing before too..
i guess it the temp feeling which make my mind kind of unclear and mess up.
Now everything i back to normal i guess.
I feel down indeed but yet it isnt that serious i thot actually.
Maybe i just want to say out to make myself feel better.
Came to my surprise you actually knew it and you still carry on with the action but well its okay. i don mind too. haha

Chat with YS ytd thru the phone. Even thot he lights out still secretly chat with me..
i don want to be the one who cause him to tio confinement.
Oh ya i have to thank RY for coming to ph on wed to send me home.
And Ps Gary that i vomit in ur car. Did i dirty ur car?
i doubt so i dirty JT jacket instead. cause ur fren give me a plastic bag which got hole =(
Went over to RY house and pee. he took his car and send me home first.
Hear from JT that when she was sending me up. RY was busy cleaning his car. =(
quite funny how my vomit kanna his car.. cause i was holding the plastic bag till i fall aslp.
then the plastic bag start to fall off my hand and the vomit came off a little bit i guess..
Well sorry guys.. i love you all. =)

So before RY went off. he msn with me.. he told me this.. Remember to be good good when i not around.. =.='" i already been good even u around.. LOL..
This week isnt really a good week for me. but well hopefully something good will happen.
Always when u are trouble you will see who are the one who really care.. =)

2010-12-14T10:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just like to stone inside office till knock off..
The feeling of doing something alike everyday is so much boring for me..

Anyway i went zoukout last saturday...
First time being in zoukout that was a good experience..
Well and sad to say i lost my friend over there..
No reception and even thot it just siloso beach but simply hard to find someone..
Basically i guess i met nice person there too..
went home at 7am and rest for the whole day..

Wondering this week will i see u there? hmmmm
Siloso beach countdown party anyone? LOL

2010-12-08T17:26:00.002+08:00

this is the first time i feel so don want to do things..
waiting for dev and explaining to that BA is like wa.. how can i make u uds..
Anyway was talking to HJ and i find it rather funny..

watching KO1 again.. hearing what xiao yu talking to her..
she told her "next time u call me i will be there for you at once"
so sweet.. and the background song was "bao hu seh"

Anyway i guess it hard to ask them to go..
Sian le.. no money yet can ask me go batam..
hmmm weirdo.. forget it..
sometimes thing always turn out this way..
when ppl look for you, you be there..
when you look back for the one u always be there, they run to donno what town..
well cause i not a guy to them.. haha forget it..

2010-12-06T16:15:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it is the gap which make u feel so far away from each other..
Not only apply to one person but i feel to all the friends around me..
Of cause not say all but 80% of them ba..

I finding a someone to go with me this sat.. Who wanna go?
I mean i going with him. But i want ppl to join us..
Perhaps the more the merrier and also for some reasons i wish to have more people too..

Ytd went ecp to cycle.. i asked LP along since the car still got seat.
Cycle for 2.30 hr and off we went to Aston to have our dinner..
R joined us later so drove off to have icecream before heading home..
Missed my show and well.. so sad..
Monday blue start again..

2010-11-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

Celebration for Jeremy Birthday.. We are not into chalet anymore..

Hotel is something nice for us to try..

Pretty nice hotel and hope you enjoy ur stay in it..

Enjoying the things in it.. playing wii together..

PH at night.. well i don want the abandon of friend part..

if happen to me.. well i nothing to say... well tc

And like what u told us.. i will tell u the same too..

you guys are really my true friends.. =)

so many things.. i mean i see and i feel..

afterall there still such a hugh gap between us.. we all can be friends but not good friends..

but who care.. i got them that just simply more than enough..

2010-11-23T00:37:00.002+08:00

Woo... i saw this somewhere.. don wanna really mention where too..

"A Selfish Girl"

Well.. judging a person is not up to a stranger.. cause he/she wont know what is really happening.. Always things will happen in this world.. things that is between who and who should just keep it with them but not further explain to others.. why bother hearing one sided story..

privacy i guess.. =D

Anyway after that Saturday night.. i suffering from rashes from my face to my whole hand and back..

First time trying absinthe red( 75%) woo.. feeling woo.. good..

Thanks friend for acc.. 5-10 games which make me drank beer like plain water.. =.='"

Thanks giving me such a good environment to rest when i tired..

2010-11-01T16:45:00.002+08:00

I don wish thing to turn out to be this.. and yet you are forcing me to..
i regret for the action i done..

Well, it is after so long okay rather 4 months since we broke up.. and u are still telling me such things as..
"don regret in future" all this.. why are u keep warning me not to regret?
Even if you are the best man in earth.. well we already broke up..
i regret next time then i emo myself can? then why u keep warning me with the same word "don regret in future"..
AND SEE THIS "Is not i changed.. I never changed. i told u millions time already.. i NEVER CHANGE.." just that after so long i find we not suitable for each other.. ok?
i really hate it when you say all this.. maybe you hate me saying we have diff character or whatsoever but i not saying you bad. But only not suitable for me can?
It just a normal conver. Why you want to start all this again.. Telling me this "you use to have someone but is you don want" i really don understand you anymore..
blame me for not treasuring you okay?

i really don wish for all this.. but yet all of them scold me.. why am i still talking when you will mention back the past and say i change.. i explain since 4 mths ago but don seems to be going into ur mind.. is friend that hard to be?
Seriously, you are not such person when i with you.. Why after we broke up, the act you are giving me or even to others change?
i guess this is the way you want things to be.. i have no choice i really felt so.. hais

2010-10-29T16:42:00.002+08:00

Didnt know if i write correctly.. i think my name also write wrongly..
Anyway written recently when out with one of my friend.. too cold in the car.. woohoo
That why suddenly random does that.. haha..

Those being forgotten feeling isnt really good.. not say forgotten so serious. but well...

2010-10-24T03:48:00.000+08:00

Do you know like this make me even more stress..

somehow it go back to before..

the same old routine of others..

what others done to me is reflecting on you now too..

haiss

2010-10-23T13:48:00.002+08:00

Just smile when you feel like smiling..

Just smile even its take whole lots of energy to do so..

Just smile even if you are unhappy..

Just smile even when your heart is crying..

Just smile to pretend theres nothing..

Just smile if that can cheer another up..

This is what it call.. a moment of happiness.. LOL

Thot that have won this game but came to its not..

2010-10-22T15:09:00.003+08:00

Something which is so diff from the past life..
Hearing, Seeing and thinking..

Work been fine recently i guess. Start to have more things to do compare to the earlier months of here..
WOo!!
Just want everything to stay the same.. No change..
althot i think its hard..
just like to be carefree.. no pressure.. but life wont be that simple afterall.. so i kind of use to it.. woo..

Taken at Butter Fact.. woo

2010-10-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

Yesterday wasnt a good one infact...
too many things i thot it wont be so serious.. but yet it did..
first time having this feeling when clubbing..
sorry to make u heartache when u see me with him..
hmmm well i cant do anything actually..

going back to work tmr and i feel so tired..
so many things yet hard to explain here..
I feel so lost whenever i see u teared infront of me..
sorry to disappoint all the times..
all i need is time for myself

2010-10-13T11:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i been thinking what am i doing..
So many things happened..
I know is something good but is it something i want?
Easily just like this everything is taken away from me..
I thought i wont..

Tell me.. what should i do..
i want to say but i donno how to..
i want to find an answer for myself but i cant..
i want to cry at times yet i know i cant..

One time and after..
i always don learn my lesson and its getting worst..

2010-08-31T12:42:00.002+08:00

Somtimes i tend to be taking things for granted..
What i shouldnt be having yet i want to get a hold of it..
i donno what am i thinking..
things are now all in a mess..
Really in a big mess. How i hope i can express that kind of mess in me.. But it something so hard to be told. Well..

2010-08-23T14:46:00.002+08:00

Hmmm. Actually i feel that i really have a very weird attitude.. Really..
i tend to see things so seriously when i not suppose to.
When it just a friend to friend thing i just feel so fed up..
i mean i donno why sometimes jiu will have such feeling.
i know i not suppose to feel this and that..
Tell me how to stop myself from all this nonsense..

2010-08-17T21:59:00.001+08:00

Life been busy with me.. working, meeting up with people, play sleep..

Woo.. totally different life right now.. Well kind of get use to it..

I found a good working partner in work..

We laugh loudly together, play game all day long and club together.. Woo. my love

2010-08-08T15:49:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the one taking care of me for the past 2 crazy night..

Thanks for my beloved fren.. Haha having fun listening to you scolding fuck u.. haha and also another one who play her ipod

2010-08-05T14:12:00.002+08:00

OMG! OH MY~ God
What am i doing.. =/
Fri, Sat club..
And ytd i went again.. DAMN back home shag, half bottle left.
So fri again?

someone please bloody hell stop me from all this nonsense..
i cant help myself like freak..
dying in office now.. 2 hours of slp and work..
Listening to djkzee mix now..
Wooo

2010-08-03T15:54:00.003+08:00

My life is in a freaking MESS!! Do u know?
i don even know what i doing nowadays..

Down on illness for a week.. When i cant tahan anymore i went to visit doctor..
2 Days MC! Woohoo last thur and fri.. so i rest and rest and rest..
Enough rest and here i go to visit rebel..
Well i make someone drunk =/
3/4 of chivas, 1/4 of coke.. drink non stop..
haha sorry!!

So as usual i not superwoman drink so much of cos will have a little effect..
Woo dance till club close.. and well met with really weird guys there.. HAHA
so home dead..

Eat med and coma like crazy..
rest and off i go to powerhouse at night..
Woo.. didnt drink at all.. thirsty like mad so drink some beer..
party like mad.. yet..
i still disappointed someone..

i know you are concern about me..
i know you care for me..
but is not that i don want to listen to you..
But i donno what i am doing too..
i need to get some life..
no one understand this type of feeling
thanks for coming in when i need someone here..
but everything seems like a dream to me..
Well..

Working life is so tiring.. But i guess here is better a lot than swiber..
people here are younger and perhaps have more life. Althot work are bored.

what should i do? long weekend again.. WOOOHOOOO

i feeling..
happy, sad, angry, crazy.. too much emotion.. Mood swing so easily.
Crazy me

2010-07-07T14:50:00.002+08:00

Neither my brother or me won the match yesterday night for holland and uruguay.

But well at least we know holland will win. Hahha.

Wondering tonight germany vs spain. Will it still be so much goals like germany vs argentina?

OMG

GO GERMANY.. WOOO

2010-07-06T00:24:00.002+08:00

i feel my heart is feeling exactly like this song. Yes exactly. But sorry that we have to come up with this decision.

The problem in us is not say solve jiu can solve. hope you understand.

Even i feel the pain too.

We will grow up from this incident and will not know what will happen to us in the furture to come.

But well. it just 3 more mths away to our 2 years anni. Sad to say we didnt make it and well..

i wish you well. And all the best too.

And thanks those for are around when i down. Pei me when i teared. drink with me when i feel like.

Thanks.

天凉了　雨下了　你走了

　　清楚了　我爱的　遗失了

　　落叶飘在湖面上睡着了

　　想要放　放不掉　泪在飘

　　你看看　你看看不到

　　我假装过去不重要　却发现自己办不到

　　说了再见　才发现再也见不到

　　我不能就这样失去你的微笑

　　口红待在桌角　而你我找不到

　　若角色对调你说好不好

　　说了再见　才发现再也见不到

　　能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉

　　说好陪我到老　永恒往哪里找

　　再次拥抱一分一秒都好

　　天凉了　雨下了　你走了

　　清楚了　我爱的　遗失了

　　落叶飘在湖面上睡着了

　　想要放　放不掉　泪在飘

　　你看看　你看看　看不到

　　我假装过去不重要　却发现自己办不到

　　说了再见　才发现再也见不到

　　我不能就这样失去你的微笑

　　口红待在桌角　而你我找不到

　　若角色对调你说好不好

　　你的笑　你的好　脑海里　一直在绕

　　我的手　忘不了　你手的温度

　　心碎了一地　捡不回从前的心跳　身陷过去我无力逃跑

　　说再见　才发现再也见不到

　　能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉

　　说好陪我到老　永恒往哪里找

　　再次拥抱一分一秒都好

2010-07-01T02:57:00.004+08:00

Half beer, Half red label.. non - stop. Which became one of the fearful night for me..
If only someone snap one picture of how i look like that freaking day.
I will alway look at my own picture and tell myself you wont that yourselves to be that drunk just like that day.
i just feel like my head spinning and spinning nonstop..

Woo how much we drank? almost one full red label mix with 15 cans of beer and we drink it within less than 10 mins? POWER NEH NEH.
haha. Without you guys around i will be KO even earlier.
So cute ah aiwee. even when we drunk we say wanna drink more she went in 7-11 and buy more. Well even before we can drink. We already on the floor. HAHA.. but i got drink some before i fall. HAHA

2010-06-28T13:06:00.005+08:00

Thanks for the promise that you make.

Thanks for fulfilling the promise that you made.

So much things happening between me and him.

It because sometimes something cannot be change you understand.

Something we cant change just to compromise each other.

If we change it become not ourselves anymore.

So i been thinking and thinking.

honestly and seriously i feel the pain too.

But you always telling me how much hurt i put into you.

So you think i dont feel so?

Hmmm anyway i still strong.

Having ppl around me..

Helping me, talking to me, pei me

And well i make a mistake again..

2010-06-12T02:14:00.002+08:00

Things isnt the same like before..

Occasionally meeting up the one i want is all i need in life..

After all this year.. only true peopl will exists..

WOOO..

so many things change.. so many comments around..

Althot i didnt know what to do..

but i guess i will still hold on

2010-06-06T15:22:00.002+08:00

Woo.. During my bro bday was just eating and eating and eating.

Drink and drink and drink.. each day at least one person will puke..

tsk tsk i feel my health is getting worst..

All the alcohol intake is so much that it kill my throat..

well.. i just simply like this type of day..

Anyway jin going in army already.. Luck for your smooth army years ahead. Woo..

Busy busy busy.. gathering here and there and guess wont be so much gathering anymore ba.

Looking forward to someone invitation to drink when you decide to end. ok

It isnt a easy process when you broke up.

But well if things isnt the right way now i will support you, your decision..

Don worry i will pei you drink till you happy...

Thats what friends are for right.

WOO!!! just remember i broke ok. thanks

2010-05-28T14:04:00.002+08:00

Huiqi asked me today

she said " you angry with primers ppl not coming your grad?"

haha i think if they come i find it weird. LOL

NO i not angry with primers ppl la. Cos also not close to them.

Just i feel weird that i join this cca before. Did i? LOL

heading to msia to celebrate bday. woo damn

2010-05-23T23:07:00.004+08:00

2010-05-23T16:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night was just a tired night for me and them.

i brought my fear of the month over to the dance floor. Bringing me some pain, leg, back pain too. Well.

Although its not a very fun night but i find its okay la. Cos just the usual. so many people over there. And a protective night too. with the guys over there acting as our soldiers. And the lightstick jeremy holding as a weapon. LOL. hmmm

well. people sae without giving a confirmation answer.

Anyway i received one of my fren sms over from thai. rather surprising yet...

2010-05-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

My Lovely Graduation =))

Well i will want to say something about my graduation.

It something memorable because this mark down the end of my poly life.

Yes. isnt it cool.

i enjoy this day. Why because it just full of laughter.

taking photos with all my love one although some are unavailable to make it.

but at least they told me why they are unavailable and i happy they have the heart too.

Seeing photos of others like jon, ben all this business de graduation. wow i can see a lot of primers people there. That was great for them..

How about me? aiwee? budiman? Haha don worry if not for the photos i see we also never think of that. Because we don belong there anymore.

How much we once put in. Is actually just all voluntary work there only. Once end everything finish. And does it goes to the friendship we have over there too? well we probably think so too. It just take a simple action to prove everything.

Regret in some sense. Just treat it as a mistake we went there.

But we still have great friends we know like budi, xl, iggie and even bf

Friends can have many but how many are the one who will be there? haha

But anyway i still thanks huiqi for the congrats on facebook.

AND i am lucky to have those guys left. Althot jin xiang came and took picture with me. And i never pick up your call. But thanks for having the heart to sae you want to take picture with me. This type of feeling is good. why cause he only my freshies during the past 2 years and not recent somemore and he did it. =))

And the other 3 guys i know they have heart too. But cant but thanks too.

Somehow they make it feel good knowing them.

Jin, Ttl, tl gf, Jes, wq, ws thanks for coming down to take picture with me and aiwee.

How good it is to have you guys being around since secondary school.

From sec sch cca know till now? and we are full of crap too.

Thanks for coming during lunch break, fyp, home and even take leave to come down.

woo love.

Julia, norah, liling, xuehui, pitrra we graduated already. Can you believe it? Woo

long day today. grad start at 9.30 been there till 2.30 then. pool for 5 hours till 8pm and a delicious dinner.

Thanks =)

2010-05-02T16:20:00.001+08:00

i starting work tomorrow. 1mth temp job but i feeling bored. perhaps i nua too much at home and i enjoy slping till 12pm everyday. But i guess working can help me spend time more wisely ba.
Anyway even before i get this job i already apply leave for my genting trip.
Well genting trip again. i can predict the thing we will be doing is the same. But i know i gonna enjoy it because of the company of everyone i guess.

ytd just have a malaysia eating trip with my frens. And all i can say is really all the way eat non stop then back to singapore. But is something enjoyable yet torturing.

Staring at the blog yet nothing i can say. No rather i have so much to say yet this is not a place for me to say i guess.
If even i can turn back time poly is something i want to start again. well in poly i feel that i didnt meet any fren which last. perhaps wrong course, wrong cca

Ytd someone say this to me and i feel its rather funny. he said "kelly i think you quit clubbing liao is it?" when did i ever is a member of daily clubber. what a question.

2010-04-12T16:57:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Tangweiqiang my dearest.

Hope you love the surprise given by us.

and hope it will be a memorable one for you too

2010-04-08T01:41:00.002+08:00

i'm in the stage where i hope someone will come over to me and knock onto my door and say " Kelly, i am here to help you"

I try my best to carry out everything by myself but i don have the ability.

2010-03-25T15:32:00.002+08:00

Kite flying session on rainy days and Night cycling around woodlands.

Awesome. And i start to love sitting at the back of the bicycle enjoying without riding.

Thanks boyf for tiring your legs. woohoo

to avoid being drench. LOL

2010-03-25T15:20:00.002+08:00

Kind of donno which picture should i upload and kind of lazy to upload and say about this trip.

Because i guess fb is much better than blogger now.

Anyway the trip was fun. The stuffs there is cheap.

Not enough time to really shop one by one.

And i guess if i bring more cash there i will buy even more.

one thing sad about this trip was, our hotel room no bathtub. oh man such a disappointment.

Shopping, massage, night market, hollywood(their club), eat..

i guess thats wat we did over there.

And we are lucky, we left bkk in the morning back to spore and that was a Wednesday.

that was the day the red shirt start to gather people for their protest. Woo =)

Anyway this isnt the group picture. Because i don have group picture yet. therefore this will do.

2010-03-25T15:13:00.002+08:00

How hard you try. will result in how much you get in poly.

For this last sem result is actually something good for me.

But overall it still cannot help much due to my laziness in my poly life.

If time turn back. Perhaps i will study harder but i know i sure skip school like nobody business still.

So no point regretting or what so ever.

Anyway out of no where, we have a talk with the primers.

Actually i can say it isnt really a solving solutions thing.

We know we have thing to counter back what they say.

Should i not use counter but to prove that what they are saying is not right.

But i know we wont want to waste time any longer.

come to think of it i'm still the ex president of primers.

If now you see the suitable and you donno primers well.

You wont know the and see thru us the contribution we have put in.

but well thats life.

somemore those who drop out from primers

strange enough will be the closest to us instead.

lastly i hope.. things would turn out what i imagine.

2010-02-27T01:49:00.001+08:00

AIWEE and I share the same thot..

She got the face which make us feel.. Hmm Hmmm..

i guess not many people will think so..

But i think is not us thinking too much. Is us too good in seeing people.

=))

right wee wee?

2010-02-25T16:16:00.003+08:00

School life consider ended for me. =)

seriously i think this 3 years pass very fast.

Although i don have a really bonded class or rather we don bond at all.

But yet 1 or 2 person is just so enough to let my this 3 year past happily?

Why i say so? because i always feel that IT or rather my classmates

all look like nerd? or rather too guai?

hanging around with them i guess the topic will always be like

"hey how do u know if else statement is better than using select case"

all those boring nerd will say de stuff it stuff.

Or maybe sometimes better topic like

"later we stay back and play game one?"

typical gamer.

And my life been good. Eating drumlets, coming out of class to buy food, slacking, playing pet society on year 2 first sem, playing spot the difference on year 2 second sem, cafe world for year 3. And seriously i donno i why i just come sch to play.

BUT yet i always recieve warming letter as usual.

Honestly i feel so shy. Because u see which IT nerds will get warming letter? so it make me look like a bad girl like that.

WHO the hell can wake up for 8am lesson? -__-"

but i stil great i know ppl who help me with assignments, laugh loudly tog when talking abt dramas, playing game tog in class, slacking to go lesson and all this.. =)))

AND HERE I AM GRADUATE FROM SP. =))

but left with the industry night. SIAN

I looking forward to my next week bkk trip with my lovely poly peeps, wee and bf. =))

wondering and feeling happy la. oh man

ytd i went over to party world!!!!

it was like how long since i last step into party world man..

i will visit u again =)

and 就想賴著妳 was a good show indeed.

waiting for 下一站, 幸福 to finish too.. Woo

2010-02-22T00:17:00.002+08:00

This new year seems to be like a gathering for me..

Meeting up with my clique(part of them)

Meeting up with clust A ppl

Meeting up with some primers year 3

all to bai nian..

And all gamble of cos..

Win and lose. But FUN

anyway its fun and seriously i really don wanna study adbms

what is adbms compare to so many freaking nice show?

what is adbms compare to my bed?

and yes i wanna talk about the joining of poc..

this event is like how i really start planning events in primers.

How i know all of them and how we seriously grow.

And one things is we always complain to each other that

compare to the batch now and even newer

we learn so much compare to them.

WHY?

because as a year 2 we plan poc by ourselves most of the time

year 3 again we are head help them plan most of the thing.

as in maybe they cannot see this but we who go thur it feel this.

so many thots to sae.

but like i sae nothing can be compare to my drama right now and so

i will sae till here..

AND anyway i thot xia yi zhai xing fu will end like in 20 epi and i'm wrong. OH MAN

2010-02-15T19:37:00.003+08:00

Happy chinese new year people =))
althot cny is rather bored for me yet i can eat a lot which is bad but you cannot dont eat.
WHY? or else the food will gone bad and waste.

Anyway i had a bad dream on cny day 1..
Should i sae it wasnt bad dream jsut some dream abt relationship.
AND The most terrible thing is i know who the another person in dream..
omfg!!

anyway i lost 30 ytd? hmmm i going slp. Nights

2010-02-09T21:28:00.003+08:00

being scolded more than 3 times of 神经病.
what can i sae?
there so much i want to sae yet no point.
cos no one want to hear.

2010-02-08T01:35:00.001+08:00

wondering why some people can enjoy their time
while some only can stare at the com?
sad case

2010-02-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

i wanna watch xia yi zhan xing fu..
OMG i in love with that show..
in love with xiao bin bin.. its so cute seeing his face, hearing his voice, hearing him call mu cheng.
OMFG..

Anyway finally bangkok is booked.
Yet i have a mixed feeling going for this trip.. Some hard to define feeling inside..

I know my mood swing as fast as the clock.. Yet i always want to control but i cant..
What i am thinking i just cant express out why i cant control all this from happening..
who will know, who will care..

23 feb. i so looking forward.. =)

2010-01-28T22:51:00.002+08:00

Great that somehow the progress for this sem in sch, the effort that i or rather we put in get me a little motivation to get my last piece of work done and chiong to the very end..
Althot i still hate going to sch, hate to sit inside classroom hearing some teacher singing lallaby to us. but this is the very last sem. The sem which i put in effort to do my fyp, the sem where i try to go school even more often..
FYP i think we are doing rather okay right now.. Coding is neater than the one we did in pharse 1.

During pharse 1 we get praise for doing more than wat the judge expect and the client too.
ADBMS get 74,5 which is a good result for my mst?
ADBMS assignment get only 2 or 3 mistake? which consider good?
BRCOM assignment get an A.
But i fail my 5% test 12/25 =(

hopefully this time
BRCOME assignment get A too.
ADBMS assignment get A too.
ADBMS final exam hmmm that one if i can get like my mst i can jump up high.. but hope ba..
FYP get at least B?
Lets hope..

what my future plan after my poly? Seriously i not sure yet.. I wan to have someone to help me with it. but no one can.. no one understand and know what i really wan.. hmmm some kind of weird feeling..
actually so many things that are happening making me feel like so many things are changing..
why do people change so fast and appear to be so weird..
but why so much things i dislike and it keep replaying in my life.. FML

2010-01-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

unspoken fear in me..
I FEEL SO FUCKING STRESS.. WITH EVERYTHING..
CAN I STOP LIFE LIKE THIS RIGHT NOW..
FREAK

2010-01-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

feeling very tight nowadays..
mood swing so freely..
but i know everyone should live happily after all..

why bother to choose sadness over happiness..
why bother to think more than think less..

2010-01-11T01:39:00.003+08:00

i am evil..
somehow somewhere..
when i see it.. i know u all so not going to have it..
becos i just wont let it happen..
unless things really really change..
Muhahaha.

2010-01-03T18:34:00.000+08:00

gonna be crazy..
looking at the assignment for 2 freaking days..
sat and sun.. don seem to be like weekends.. rotting

2010-01-02T00:08:00.002+08:00

Welcome 2010..

i guess the mood wasnt really there..
But i guess lots of ppl is enjoying and counting down to 2010..
For me we have a small mini steamboat and yet i enjoyed myself..
Enjoyed talking with them and LOL..
Enjoyed watching tv with them..
Enjoyed 3G-ing people dueing 12.. But only jeremy pick up.. -__-"
Enjoyed manjonging till morning..

2009..
i wanna put down some impt things or meaningful stuff which i done..
- Stepping down from sp.primers.. which i get so much freedom.. no more meetings, nothing
- Genting trip with wee, ttl and ttl's gf on march.. consider first outing with them
- KL trip with boyf.. Our very first trip
- 17 months ITP at ministry of transport.. far and stress yet i manage to survive
- Genting trip with boyf on 1 ONE year anniversary..

being with boyf throughout the whole of 2009..
Facing all the ups and downs.. the longer we are, the more quarrel we get.. we know our reason, our temper yet sometimes we just cant control ourselves..
I rem we got into a rather big big quarrel recently during MST period and i thought we wouldnt make it thru this year but we did..
i came to realise how fortunate to have you after talking out with him..
A mistake we make, yet we left it unsaid throughout a year plus and we finally talked it out..
I am lucky you didnt take me for granted..
i glad to hear that you want be with me..
but i know for the both of us we just cant be together..
AND YES we nv be together..
U tell me you will be there for me even if now we are having our own life..
whenever i am down you will be here for me..
i know you will treat your gf well..
but i realise being your fren its just hard to communicate with you..
i know you will be loyal yet you will make mistake..

All this make me realise how much i cherish my boyf..
how much he is different from you..
how much he treat me better..
how much he will be here by action rather than words..
Sometimes i feel so foolish to think of why you like this, why you like that..
but i wont think anymore.. i will continue to walk my beautiful life with boyf..
And all this i thanks boyf for walking thru with me.. ILU

Aiwee..
we been thru a lot during the past.. the laughter, the anger, the sorrow, the pain and everything
is still counting and we wont let it stop right?
i know we love each other too.. but just dont let our temper affect and everything affect us okay..
even if we have no time, even if we go our separate ways somewhere deep in our heart i know you wont forget me till you die..
And yea i waitng to celebrate our 10 years anni on 2011.. =))

2010..
a great changes to our life and i wish for a
- smooth year for my family..
- smooth year for myself..
- smooth year for boyf (his army, his health, his studies)
- find a job for myself
- FYP successfully done..
and lots more.. yet i cant really rem

What we always been saying.. 20 years old.. just few years or months away from working life, marriage, family.. but well i still love my life with the people ard me now..

2009-12-30T00:30:00.003+08:00

Actually i wanted to wait for pics to be out...
So that i can blog with picture to make it more interesting somehow someways..

Sat 26dec @ powerhse
Me, aiwee, xiuling, iggie, budiman, jeremy and shijun..
Consider fun time over there? erm not as good because of the crowd i guess..
It was so damn crowded..
And guess that first time we didnt order any alcohol to make us high or drunk..
Actually we wanted to just that we're kind of lazy..

So dance dance dance.. dancing on the stage is much more better than on the ground..
You have much more spaces on top..
that night came one Japanese DJ and therefore got all those balloons and color paper flying down from the roof..
And before the that the Dj was saying like bad romance or something like that..
Bad romance was the highest moment over there..

Classic moment to remember..
One pathetic guy who are trying to grind another girl.. And his ass kip knocking onto me.. And somehow not one time but many many times.. So i tell SJ and kind of we change place.. he feel it too.. so we wanted to take revenge..
Without me shijun wont have the courage to do so.. this is what he sae..
So i put my hand over his shoulder and dance with him.. And he use his force to knock back the guy..
And it irritated them.. HAHA..
So the guy ask another guy together they push shijun with them sucky butt.. But cause i dancing with him so i hold onto him.. And sj use his full force and push back them.. In the end we back out..
luckily nv get into any fights.. or i scare =x good girl don fight..
WORST.. All of them donno what happen or just looking nv come and help me and sj..
But we still won.. i proud of us.. =))

i enjoyed my time with them.. =)) merry belated Christmas

2009-12-29T13:10:00.002+08:00

While drinking milo right now i rem how sweet boyf is on sunday..

we got into a small little quarrel..
But he still travel all the way from his house to my hse just to pack dinner for me..
Once he step into my house he went into the kitchen to make hot milo for me=)
He's afraid that my stomach will feel pain after my clubbing session last night..
boyf u shld know i have my reason to be unhappy but maybe due to my pms i get even angry..
And thanks bibii for getting me one hugh bit bit.. my bed gonna be so full soon..

fyp meeting ytd.. 1 more weeks to finish 1 untouch brcom and 2 more weeks to finish fyp.. why is it we having so little time for this sem? weird right..
time is running out.. out of the sudden i'm worried..

2009-12-28T08:37:00.000+08:00

i know i will be dead going to school today..
With nothing done for my fyp..
DAMN... Chirstmas, new year.. whats more HOLIDAY..
How to get things done?
but i know somehow i have to.. time is running short..
People lets all meet outside admin office and register to quit school.. yea baby ^^

2009-12-27T15:57:00.002+08:00

After much thinking.. i feel that i shouldnt be blogging sentence by sentence again my thots..
Rather the things i have done which i want to rememeber next year old or so..

Chirstmas Eve..
Packed our bags and we headed to Johor bahru.. =))

Suppose to go Jb central hotel but someone cut our queue and we decided not to stay at that hotel.. And yea plans is to book one hotel and stay cause of our money wise..

But we found a better hotel further back.. 90rm per night.. Book 3 rooms..

And here my chirstmas spend with another 2 lovely couples.. =/

camwhores, eat, movie(the treasure hunter),Fireworks, Somewhere which look like orchard, long journey in the cab( which we sit for 50 mins and it cause 14 spore ONLY),the chirstmas exchange, singing in a hugh vip room, eating ice cream too(my fondue)...

we named ourselves 六个人.. actually not we name is the bak kut teh auntie name us.. The next time we want advanced booking we can call her tell her that we are the 六个人 and we will get discount..

Anyway we enjoyed ourselves to the max.. Simply yet full of laughter chirstmas.. =))

2009-12-26T14:21:00.002+08:00

Had a good Chirstmas this year..
Eating, Walking, Fireworks, Gift Exchange..

but i don uds something about some humans..
Its weird..
why i always feel that ppl trying to snatch away things from me?
what will u do if someone try to snatch away the things which are impt to u?
i guess i will do nothing..
LOL..
if it belong to u nobody can take it away..

And yea.. clubbing tonight..
you know that i want you
you know that i need you
i want a bad, a bad romance

2009-12-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just wonder why i dislike them..
i really donno why.. but it just somehow something which cannot be control..

Anyway christmas coming..
Hopefully something good will happen on that day..
Gonna be a fun night tomlo too..
And sat i see no plans yet..
let drink drunk drank..
And sometimes i know if i go with the siao kia..
We will be hugging each other and shake shake shake
then puke puke puke..

JESLINE DING ask me..
Hey wed we go club want?
THen i replied..
No i not free la..
JES sae..
if can go lets pour again see who drank first..
THEN I REPLIED..
U..

Why i sae this is asking the obvious..
in then end i may need to see her hug the duskbin again.. Dirty girl..

i got a date to club next wed.. woo.. last before sch start again?

2009-12-15T13:28:00.002+08:00

Holidays!!!
Yet have to do fyp and assignment..
Student life still sucks sometime..

Anyway everything is alright right now..
And i am happy with my life..
So this christmas what can i do..

i watched the movie couples retreat with my bf and weewee
I can say its rather funny and some parts i was like WTF...
When the coach was showing sex position on others wife..
Althot its monday thought can really save some money on movie..
Indeed we did save cos of the 6 dollars ticket..
Yet we spend money on curry puff, Big bao, drinks, Snacks and also popcorn..
From hungry till fun.

But we still went over to eat after movie
which nearly make us puke..
wondering why sometimes we must be so cheng qiang..
going to bathe now and off to school to meet bf. =))

2009-12-09T23:54:00.002+08:00

how would i describle today..
Saddness yet laughter all along..
Thanks to my brother who make the tap burst which make both of us in a big wooha..
Buying the wrong tap and accuss me in front of my dad and so many rubbish..
And yet when i want to settle down and start revision all the stuff come into my brains..

Till now i haven start revision..
I want to tell someone "Oh shit i haven start my revision" yet no one to turn to..
This paper isnt at all. And my i cant get to study..

somehow i guess we walk to the end point where there is no more road to carry on..
But i pretty alright i guess.. i kind of use to all this nonsense.. yea

Zouk this friday? Powerhse sat?
let have pour again? this time round make me drunk instead..
Or perhaps hook a pretty good guy out there? woo

2009-12-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

SCSM.. i have lots of fun with them..
Even if it slping on that piece of wood with 4 or 5 person..
we simply just enjoy isnt it?

Laughter is always the best thing even in life i guess...
but right now i hope mst week everyone can jiayou esp u okay?

no matter how weak you are, how unhappy you feel
even if you dont say anything out
i will be there for you. =))

one funny fact we discovered ytd..
Aiwee is going to retired at the age of 27.. LOL

2009-11-23T12:55:00.003+08:00

i realise this song lyrics is so meaningful
word by word it express lots of ppl feeling i guess..
those in bold is wat happening in human life at times.. woo

不喜欢怀疑什么　
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化　
慢慢不同我不是生气　
只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了　
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变　
但不能说　
你会这么做是我的错

哭过就好了　
伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱　　为了牵手
不是为了争吵　　为了调头
哭过就好了　　
痛都会走的
记忆有限　　　所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌　　　想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了
越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋
或手上但它一定在我身上
某个地方

i'm just bored.. -___-"

2009-11-12T18:25:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i don uds..
Why human like to become emo..
and honestly i will become emo too..
but isnt frequent emo will tend to be like a fake one..

i always wondering how emo one person can be?
he lost his relatives recently(i can accpet), just breakup(also can accpet)
but just that when u feel bored u feel life is meaningless u feel emo..

But how life have been meaningless for u? the life u been through u don have at least a smile one day..
sometimes overreacting of how u feel isnt good too..
when u need someone some spaces u can always get it by asking and so for..

being emo sad life meaningless is u being at home ALL THE TIME..
sad because ur family are bankrupt, u feel helpless, u cant study, u fail ur exam, health is having problems.
why when someone who need to be really emo doesnt show it..
but people who actually isnt emo need to show that they are?

tell me how sad how meaningless u have.. when u really have friends around..
but is always u trying to lock urself in that emotional state..
weird human being..

busy.. but i still trying hard to balance myself with things around..

2009-11-09T22:15:00.001+08:00

Woohoo =)
i just feel like slping.. =)
tired

2009-11-08T22:45:00.002+08:00

my girlfren is an agent movie is awesome..
laughter thruout due to the show, sj driving and also us..
don wanna end the night early but yet i have to work the next day..
So home at 1+..

less than 4 hours of slp we went to work..
One word "BUSY"
siao the crowd.. i didnt know so many ppl wil come and buy baby product.. it like flood..
3 customers talking to u at the same time? hmmm
but i learn a lot. being a parent isnt easy.. the cost of the baby items isnt cheap too..
But the sales is really damn sales that why so many ppl..
suddenly i feel why so many pregrant woman in singapore.. Low birth rate?
Yet i see so many of them.. but if i am to be a parent i guess i know more abt wat to get next time..

So bf is selling rice cooker, jeremy blender, iggie sound system..
Rather enjoy. They fed us like a pig.. haha
sat i didnt get to eat so much.. cos full.. but sunday
morning nasi lemak chicken drum, egg, peannuts, lunch fried rice with nuggets, eggs and long beans, tea break kueh and curry puff.. LOL..
in between one guy pass me one coke then another pass me one green tea.. HEAVEN..
fun la..got chun coming over to talk to me at times.. and my new fren over there..
anyway 3 of us brought product home.. =)woohooooo

i so not looking forward for school to reopen.
seriously i lazy my dream is i got lots of money i just shop, slp and eat. =)

2009-11-05T11:02:00.002+08:00

getting tired more and more tired..
i need some real good rest.. real good slp..
Fyp like nv ending.. Everyday even sat and sun we assgin to task to be complete on monday..
Not even a day we like okay.. Today we shall not do anythign and rest okay..

i hope everything will go back as stable as before..
talk to me.. ask me.. sms,msn just misinterprut stuff..

waiting for my computer to restart and i starting my fyp..
baby care for this sat, sun work.. the worst part is everyone has fren inside.. then me..
miserable loner..

2009-10-30T12:55:00.003+08:00

Today is FRIDAY..

Finally i don have FYP today.. Thanks mr tan for being not FREE..

I can slp and party like a rockstart Tonight.. =))

School been rather tiring now..

Fyp everyday coding sdt table everything and everything..

And honestly i'm a nooob to PHP..

but nvm human grow..

now inside lib maybe to do some work and play some game then here i go..

Hopefully this sem all my hard work will paid off and i cna burn all my book

Reformat my com no more SQL, visual studio.. =))

I am happy right now..

Working next week.. Money money come to me..

Another month coming soon.. its our 13mths..

Chirstmas coming too then new year then chinese new year then I AM OUT OF POLY..

but i wonder wat i will doing after i get out of poly.. hmmmm

I miss them, their laughter, their teasing and the good times..

2009-10-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

The week is packed for me..
i rem i went to west coast for lantene fest..
Genting for one year anni ^^
PH with my frens. =)))

Woo happening and yea..
My first time joining his grp of frens..
My first time to genting with him..
My first time PH with jeremy and sj..

So many things i learnt..
i guess i can nv communicate with his fren.. Is it i weird anti social? But i doubt so..
why everyone who is fren with me can break the ice within 1 day?
But when i with him and his fren i feel like a dumbdumb.. LOL
A person like me who can be one who speak less than 20 sentences within that hours..
but nvm becos i still have my lovely frens.. =))

Genting is something rather happening.. rides i didnt manage to play last time i did it this time.. rather surprising for some places too.. Play eat play.. play eat play.. everytime is like this..
I guess that time i went with wee we kanna cheated? haha no electric water cooker.. no fridge.. no hair dryer.. no tea/coffee packs.. no security box.. no double bed.. LOL
hmmm yea and conicidence meeting wit xl and iggie playing motion laser? ya and bumper cars was also something happening.. haha
Overall i love the trip..

PH woo.. 6 person go and 1 get high.. But that pretty cool and i enjoy myself to the max.. Althot somehow i feel that the music over there isnt that great but its still ok.. Its hard to explain wat happen there cos witness it then u will know why is it happening.. <3

JB trip tomlo.. =))

2009-10-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

i long nv update photos.. i want to but i don have picture with me and i lazy to get it from facebook too..

How time flies.. the day i when we first begin and now it going to be a year gone..
Ups and Downs but i hope we learnt and improve..

yea looking forward to the trip and also the crazy night with my frens..
i guess it something which will be fun for the very max..

2009-09-22T01:21:00.002+08:00

I guess life is busy right now for me..
What i been doing is catching up with my friends and so on..
Sending off ben on 21/9 suddenly make me think back.. way back to one year ago the time i went to sri lanka..

Actually seriously i feel like going back again.. Not with primers but the same old place to help them out and so on.. Think of it it really memorable to have the fun grp of us digging laughing watching the stars together..
And randomly we talk abt batam trip i wonder can it success but if it does i guess it really something so amazing in my life.. With this bunch of humans..

During the holiday i enjoy clubbing with my friend honestly. Not as in i am a clubber which i am not.. It just that perhaps i love loud music and dancing freely which everyone does.. I mean i love the feeling of dancing all this.. Weird me but i just feel like dancing freely to the beat of the music..

2009-09-17T12:56:00.003+08:00

Finally RIO camp ended..
Inside this camp i learnt quite a lot abt them.. In a good way or bad i shld say..
Those who see it they will know
But pretty awesome cause once it end..

Anyway busy week ahead.. So Monday 14/9
Me and boyf randomly went out to IMM to walk and suddenly we start buying present for shijun and thinking of baking cake for him..
So we went to wee hse to ton and prepare for him..
The process is rush and inexperience.. But i hope u like our effort..

15/9
Surprise at his house.. And i knew he really surprise and i hope u will rem this moment and time.. And i know you will.. =)
Went yuki yaki for lunch and pretty fun playing with the ice cream and stuff on...

16/9
Happening night..
Thanks budi for holding on me at the dancefloor taking care of me althot i just dizzy but i alright and also asking them to take care of me before u went off.. thanks..
Thanks jeff for helping me and wiping my tears, my vomit away...
Thanks aiwee for lending me ur shoulder and seeing u vomit like river beside me..
Almost all of us are down except iggie who drank 2 cups only.. Budi was alright i guess they wonder more for me and xl.. but the dizziness is just like i ride on a rollar coaster for 100 times..
but i know what i was doing..
Memorable night in fact.. Love

17/9
Awaiting to meet them again and meanwhile i need a rest right now..

2009-09-08T02:37:00.004+08:00

Thanks for another fruitful month..
My life changed when u come into my life.. But i loving my life with u right now.. <3

I love playing speed monopoly.. <3

wee saw my post and she sae from now on she must like this.. Smile forever incase unglam pic

2009-09-08T02:26:00.003+08:00

I love web caming nowadays.. Haha
Boyf showing off his bear.. Haha
Not he buy de so poor thing the bear only sit on the desk thruout his whole life with him..
REST

Haha Mao Mao..

Web cam with him.. His cam sucks..

This is my cam spoil become black and white

Yea 3 of us.. Hmmm

2009-09-06T02:15:00.003+08:00

Enjoyment to max during holiday when time is spend with him..
Good food coming my way all along the holiday and of cos cash flow out faster at times..
But thanks.

Wonderful night with the 3 of them.. From 11pm to 6am..

Singing, Sleeping, Screaming..

wondering on 16/9 can i have a advance bday celebration at PH.. LOL

2009-09-03T17:29:00.002+08:00

Rebel night with them..
Simply love the night to the max..
Highness, happiness and enjoyment till 6am..

We planned to go PH in the end 2 of them cant get in cause didnt bring IC..
So we went to rebel..
Woo.. Enjoyment..
Drink, dance, Drink, dance and drink..

Phuture night with them.. <3

2009-09-02T15:24:00.003+08:00

Woohoo..
My holidays are really a good time for me to rest at home..

Monday
went over to school to meet him up and off we went to vivo and slack..
Woohoo and this time round is really slack..
And i saw a dress... I really want to get it.. Yet he reminded me to save money.. OH MAN..
I really want that dress.. =/

Tuesday
As usual slp till 12pm and i need to rush out cause i'm late when he already done with his stuff..
So i rush off and meet him.. ION to Taka to Cine to hereen Then to Cine(Movie - The proposal) to Orchard Central to Taka To Wisma to ION(Dinner) to Taka(snacks) back home..

Guess what time it was then.. hmmm 10 plus.. Woohoo great time with him.. =)
Yea the movie was nice but it was not the story plot he said but still nice anyway.. Wooo
Yea which finding snacks in taka there was some lion dance competition held there i guess it will be there till sun?
Yea main thing was so we sit down and watch and it was the last team.. And guess what they give up half way.. First time i saw the lion up on the pole and both fell down.. OMG i guess so many of them stood up and see what happening.. That was like scary..

Now i still nuaing at home.. Woohoo st james with them later.. get pretty excited
and hopefully (u) will join us.. hmmm

2009-08-31T01:38:00.000+08:00

i getting rather excited for afternoon to reach..
doing something which i hate.. OMFG =/

2009-08-29T22:53:00.005+08:00

Just came back from dinner with wq..
First time waiting to get seated for so long just to have dinner at aston..
And i rather tired right now..
Somehow i have some plans in mind. Wondering if it will work. But lets hope it will..

Ytd finally get to swim.. And yea the feeling was great..
Life changed.. I can say its somehow a hugh change..
Woo i need to get a life.. FML

Upload some of the picture i took when i have the energy to do so..
Meanwhile i guess off to bed ba..

To me everything means a lot and it tell so much things..
And definitely its impt.. doesnt mean i dont do it i don sae it.. and its not impt.. Our perspective ba

2009-08-24T23:50:00.002+08:00

Wed 19/8 one day before work..
Boyf bring me to eat pizza hut.. Woohoo..
The pic cant show all.. but we had one tomato soup each, one plate of fries each, me personal pizza, his curry baked rice ( aiwee u cant eat.. taste like indian cook de.. super not nice), 6 drumlets, 1 scoop choco icecream each, one lemon tea each..
Super full and nice.. Woohoo..
Thanks for making my day..

24/8

Meet up with my silly friend..

Aiwee please don do sillly stuff.. No matter how sad u are don smoke okay? JOKING LA..

she would nv smoke..some fren of mine..

Smoking harms.. Please don try it.. LOL

2009-08-24T12:01:00.003+08:00

somehow get it clear all this time..
U always make me think or sound like it is alway i don want.. but actually u are the one who don want in fact..
but u just cant see it..

2009-08-24T10:03:00.002+08:00

I damn bored right now..
Guess i seriously have to find things to do myself..
Days ahead how am i going to survive.. FML

Dream of something weird and funny.. But i guess it rather true if it really going to happen..

2009-08-23T00:52:00.002+08:00

Holiday.. I finally ended my ITP..
i endure thru the 17 weeks.. AND thanks ppl who pei me/chat with me thru.. Thanks. =))

I was still wondering should i get down to find some job for myself.. But yet i think i will not want to.. Cause of some reason which i told boyf.
But i have no plans on what i shld do.. hopefully boyf can pei me 24/7.. which is impossible..

Steamboat with boyf, wee, budi, sj and ben. Yes simply enjoy the time.. And it was rare to gather with the 6 of us.. =)

Great time talking to boyf.. Althot only awhile but indeed something which can make me realise we can be strong enough.. Thanks for making my day(almost everyday)..
i more something and i wish u also got that thinking as mine..

Holiday.. MIDNIGHT K.. MOVIE.. SWIMMING.. TON-ING.. GOOSIPING.. SHOPPING..
For all this actually i just need cash.. DAMN it..

2009-08-19T12:38:00.000+08:00

Today is wednesday..
Woo can party man.. since tomlo is my last day.. =))
But neh i so going home and sleep i guess..

Ytd really a super tiring day for me i also dont no why.. On the way back on train and i was standing up i start feeling so slpy.. Then one rather tall guy stand in front of me.. I tell you i feel like laying forward for his back for me to sleep.. Damn so i bear with it till i get to stand and rest my back at the glass panel.. And i fallen aslp worst i nearly fall on some guy when the train brake..

Reach home i tell myself i gonna early.. How early? 8+pm i went to slp.. 10+ i woke up cause i feel so unwell and toast here and there.. 1+ wake again feel so umcomfortable.. 2+ wake to on aircon but i cant really slp.. then 4+ i bth the coldness from aircon went to switch off.. And 5+ my first alarm rang.. DAMN the night..

But nvm i looking forward to meet boyf later.. Woohoo..
Wondering should i go meeting tomlo.. By right its friday so usually ppl already make arrangement.. So does it mean they changed we have to change too? i have my stand my rights too.. WOOHOO..

2009-08-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

Memorable times.. =))

2 scoop of icecream each.. sinful..

Cos of flash my face so cui

This is where we went

NDP preview.. Shi Jun join us back home..

phuture with lovely girls.. =))

i look so dark here..

Here too.. u see the 2 whites?

Thanks for the fun.. =)

* side note..

Ttl msg today too.. abt holiday meet out.. Awaiting.. LOVE =))

2009-08-17T15:21:00.001+08:00

I guess blogging is still better so here i am?
Why cause when i look back to my archive i can see the good olds day i have and laughing at myself too..

So Ndp finally come to an end. I can say it was a rather unique experience over there. Overall its still worthwhile joining it. And that mean my sat will be free from now on.. Anyway photos to be up since it speaks more than typing.

Ever since april i been waiting for NDP to come. WHY? Because once ndp is over attachment is left with 2 weeks.. Woohoo counting days to my happy days ahead(hopefully).

Great day with triple J(s) last wed at phuture and zouk.. Althot joanne went over to wine bar to find her fren.. Yet the 3 of us still continue our fun..
So we were playing some games and loser or wat drink.. So most of the time jasmine lost. Then soon after she start to act cute and say "hahahah.. i drink a lot lei, i a bit dizzy le.." see her stunning face and you will know what i mean..

ION with wee, wq and ben.. Woo my first time going there. first time going with ben? LOL enjoyable with them.. Coming out from cine we saw a ah gua.. I mean i don anti them.. Just that this one does not look okay to me..

Woohoo UP was a great movie.. i mean i feel it rather touching.. its somekind of love you cant find it exist anymore in this world..
AND i find that hangover was still okay.. at least i feel enjoyed for this show..
Photos up tonight if i am free.. And i shall try since ppl keep saeing blogger got problem uploading photos.

* someone shocked me by his phone call.. i didnt expect u will ring me up and thats u jerryl tuen like once in a lifetime.. its rare.. too bad i working cant go find u.. and u tell me can meet up more during holiday.. lets shall see will u mia..

Anyway everyone jiayou for ur exam or project okay.. esp bf, wee, ttl, jin, jeremy.. ^^

2009-07-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

Actually suppose to go out to steamboat but it was cancel..
Therefore bf and me finally can spend time tog after a busy week ♥
Looking forward to knock off althot i suffering from bad cramps..

2009-07-22T09:36:00.000+08:00

ytd some awful thing happen to me..
So things just dont turn out so good when i reach home..
In the end i feel like a kid.. just like a 5 years old when everyone come over and touch my head say go to slp everything will be fine.. i mean it just so unbearable..
Imagine the suitation if only i was so young back then. then i will feel good but i am not anymore..

So mood wasnt good.. i know bf wanted to cheer me up in the end i turn everything like so sucks.. forgive me u know when my mood is bad things always like this. ur words really do touch me..

i decide to change my dept.. i got my reason for it.. thruout primers life i only do prog before isnt it funny.. so yea hopefully.. or i really see no point in it..

i feel so guilty sorry fren i forget to tell u earlier and u have to call me to wait for me.. Sorry =(
i feel guilty my plans fail.. seriously suddenly felt so disappointed.. i have to kip to my plans.. ai yo..

Raining so heavily today.. Seriously thanks kind soul for sheltering me to the shuttle bus or i guess i drenched.. was seeing the eclipse thing at channel u didnt really watch all but feel its kinda cool.. LOL..
And i have to start my work now.. =))

i want to comment abt something i saw somewhere on the web.. seriously it just speak nothing..
What is blogging for? it somewhere i place my thots and some memorable things..
i dont blog becos i create the blog just to blog..

2009-07-20T14:20:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..
I lazy to get a new blogskin now.. I lazy to put back the html codes cause i forget the coding..
So bear with this ugly skin of mine. But most importanly is read the words isnt it..

I guess july is a period why ppl chosen to become single.. Choose to not having the another half acc.. Ask me why? i guess i donno too.. i seeing ppl around seems like having break up recently.. Hmmm i rem putting my status once in facebook single.. And now TWT urs also become single..
What happened? i sms you but you nv reply me which is rare.. Cheer up..

And don worry my frens seriously i'm alright.. i happy with my life right now.. i know you guys are concern about me.. i know you guys will be here for me.. But i really fine and happy with my life right now.. After so much stupid thots of mine which keep on occuring i guess i either have to accept it or ignore it..

But i contented with my life with frens, family, me, him and everything.. Its always just my thots that are playing and fooling around with me.. which make ppl upset, worry, angry with me..
I see something ending but i see something rising too..
And i not isolating myself or what.. But sometimes some action is just so unbearable.. Why? because i get affected very easier.. i cant change becos thats me

2009-07-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

Monday Again tomlo.. Yes i am back to working again.. =)
Week has been very fulfilling for me..
Ndp in the big rain was really amazing.. But only some of the after effect ppl got.. Take care..
Thanks beloved for taking time to spend time with me..

Next week.. looking forward to meeting JH and also XL and gang..
My mind is getting out of hand.. it just so hard to control anymore. Action don go with my thinking..

Ndp

Ice age 3

Cwp

Rather long.. Zoo

2009-07-09T09:54:00.001+08:00

i do wonder.. i do compare..
Why is it everything i wish to get, wish to hear, wish to see will not be the one i get, see or hear?

so i just get to meet up with my cuties again ytd.. was we were talking and talking..
my dear cutie TWT dont becos of stress one person eat one buddy meal.. i was just joking and in the end u really ate one buddy meal.. OH MAN..

So trained back home..On the way we beginning talk.. And seriously its funny.. when we sae wat we want to particpate will not be wat we want..how much i miss my sec sch life..
Everything seems true.. unlike now ppl are being bootlicker, hypocrite, poser..
And i rem YAW say this to me " they too di gu(like nv kind of uds what i do or stuff) on me" So i was just thinking.. HAHA its good in a good way.. WHY cos if they knew it i know i wouldnt help them too.. =)
But in others word that mean that throughout those year they failed to know me at all..

As for Work.. my supervisor want me to extract something out from a professional programmers.. And professional lei. image how their coding is like.. AND the worst thing is he want me to see his Csharp code.. When i freaking hell only learn java and vb..
And IF i will to uds i have to transfer the code to the vb program which i currenlty doing..
SAD to sae i sucks in programming..

I thot i was dreaming and when i wake up i look into my bag and really its not dream..Thank you bro.. =)

2009-07-07T09:43:00.000+08:00

Monday 6/7/09
Work is releasing at 5 today.. suppose to be 6.. woo so off i there i scroll back home..
I was so stupid.. was planning to take 166 to went to dover then je mrt.. but then the bus seem to be not coming..
At the same time 3 bus of 97 already left long ago.. So i waited and waited then another 97 came.. SO i was thinking by looking at the number of stops.. it just like extra 2 stops compare to 166. Somemore it drive me to JE.. so i took..
IN the end that bloody bus take 30 mins.. One thing i angry if i'm okay the bus took 30 mins but if i take the bus earlier i long ago shld have reach.. Stupid me..

i learn to and have already know how to complain.. Erm which humans don complain.. But thinking is it a complain i guess it just a fact. what i said is totally what i see and straight away can tell. Many thot.. Rather disappointing so be turn down by someone saeing why is it always abt them.. perhaps what i get is not what u get.. what i feel will always not be what u can feel. if it is not affecting why shld i bother saeing it out.. perhaps i can share and nag not to u but others.
sometimes i thinking of leaving.. cause maybe it will be a good thing? i do not know..